The upcoming future

So I said in my previous post that I would talk more about my Hubby's deployment. I know a lot of people do not read my blog, so this is kind of like therapy for me. A lot of this stuff I do not like or do not want to talk about to many people, so here I go.
I know when my Blake and I got married 5 years ago (I am still very very proud of that one) this moment in our lives would be inevitable. There would come a time we would have to go through our first deployment. I can't tell you how greatful I am and how lucky we are that it has taken this long to come. A lot of other military wives have had to go through what we are going through a lot sooner in their marriages, and I am happy we were not doing that.

But I am not them.

I am me, and this is our situation. I don't want to have to do this alone, and I don't want him to go. I want him to be here to be with our kids, and watch Abigail grow up for the next 4 months. Again, we are lucky that he is not going to miss the really important stuff, like walking and talking and crawling. But in this case, I don't want to be lucky. I want him to be here.

But no matter what I say, and how much I wallow in self pity, he will not be here.

My mom and I have this saying that we took from a movie. It is from A League Of Their Own. The awesome Tom Hanks looks at his players and says, "Are you crying? ARE YOU CRYING!?! There's no crying in baseball!!!"


When we say that to each other, its kind of like,"Get your head in the game, keep the emotions out of it and just DO IT!" After I have my moments (which are quite often) that is how I have to look at this. I don't want to be one of THOSE wives who give their husband a hard time for doing their job. I do enough of that at home. I don't want him to be over there feeling guilty for doing what he is supposed to do, he has other things he needs to be thinking about. Going there, staying safe, and coming home.

I must admit, I have a great role model to look up to through all of this.....



See that woman all the way on the right? That's my mom. Isn't she a georgeous? She is beautiful inside and out. She has shown me what a true Air Force wife is. Yeah you have your moments of ups and downs, sometimes you want to just throw in the towel in defeat, other times you are lonely and you want your husband home RIGHT NOW. But, even after all of those feelings you go through, you pick yourself up, stand right behind your husband, and go on. You back him up through thick and thin, and SUPPORT him. You don't just say you support him, but you actually do it by putting your game face on and getting through it.

Thanks Mom for teaching me that, among a TON of other things!!

So, my dear husband.....( I just realized I have NO photos of just you alone that are good, which we will fix, to your delight, HA!)


I am putting my game face on. Don't get me wrong, I mean, it is ME we are talking about here. I am going to have my moments of self pity and sadness, but I am behind you 100%. I love you more than I can say, and I support everything you do in the Air Force because I know you do it for us and the kids. Get over there and get back, because we need you and sometimes (ha!) want you here. Kidding....Funny Ha Ha?!